Well, last week was my spring break.  My family went to Florida because the High school baseball team goes there for spring training every year.  I didn't go because I needed to work and earn some money since I was completing my externship until two weeks ago.  I tried to work on as much school work as possible during the break but it was hard to get everything that I wanted to get done completed.  I worked six days on my break which should give me a nice heafty check. 

Ian called at 6:30 on Sunday morning.  Stupid Marine Corps never tells him anything.  He had no idea when he was supposed to come home.  I had to end up telling him that information.  That is sad in my opinion.  He asked when I was flying out and whenI was leaving.  He seemed pleased with airline ticket.  His voice sounded so different though.  It has gotten higher since he has quit smoking and he has a northern accent now.  Last time he came home he had a northern accent.  He doesnt' have any northern friends in the Corps, so i'll just have to bring that southern accent out when he comes back.  I'll put some grease in his diet which i've heard will lower your voice a little.  Maybe it was just the satalite phone that made his voice sound funny.  Anyways, his FRO emailed again today and told me when each company would be arriving at Camp Pendleton.  India, Kilo, and Lima Companies will be arriving on 3/31  and therest will be arriving on 4/1.  India is supposed to arrive so late that it might just be 4/1 before they actually get there.  Maybe this time they will arrive when they are supposed to as opposed to 5 hours late.  It bugs me because I have to wait 24 hours from the time I get to the OC to go to Camp Pendleton.  It sucks, I just thought i would have to wait a few hours, like 6 or so.  I feel bad for Ian becaus I know once he crosses that bridge, he'll want to get something to eat, and since it will be so late, restaurants will not be open.  I hope that their 96 hour leave is still set for the 1st-4th.  It should be as long as they get in on the 31st.  With everything that is going on with the "shooting investigation" I would not be suprised if they took away their 96.  But 3/1 was investigated in Fallujah for the Mosque shooting and their 96 wasn't taken away dispite the threats.  These men have been defending their country for the past 7 months and their leave should not be taken away because of the suspected stupidity of a few marines. 

It still hasn't hit me yet that I leavfe in like 9 days . . . That I'll be with Ian in 10 days.  Geez, I have so much stuff to do:

Tuesday

• Accounting Test
• Biology Lab Quiz
• Haircut
• Workout/Cardio
• Add Vocabulary into essays
• Mail Test request form
• Type One History essay

Wednesday

• Work 8-4:30
• Workout/Abs, Butt, and Back
• Tanning Bed
• Night Class
• Type 2nd History Essay

Thursday

• Biology Test
• Workout/Cardio
• Work 4-11:30

Friday

• MAS Administrative Test
• University Writing Requirement
• Revise both History essays
• Type Lesson 46 Vocabulary
• Workout
• Tanning Bed
• Type Lab Report

Saturday

• Work 8-4:30
• Add in History Vocabulary with Essays
• Workout
• Revise Lab Report

Sunday

• Church
• Workout
• Organize Papers

Monday

• Work
• Workout
• Read assignments

Tuesday

• History Test 2:30
• Dye Hair
• Type Vocabulary for Bio and ACC
• Workout

Wednesday

• Work
• Workout
• Night class
• Pack

So last time I tried this new entry, it got deleted so here it goes again . . . I finally got my plane ticket after waiting forever to hear from Ian's freaking FRO.  He sucks.  I got more information from my cousin in the Department of Defense that the FRO.  Anyways, I got my ticket last night.  I fly into Orange county the night of the 30th and fly back on the 5th.  Being as I know their new flight window dates, I think it would be safe to fly in a day before they will get home.  I am staying in a condo with Ian's parents and brother like always, but this time it only has two bedrooms . . . looks like Ian's brother is sleeping on the couch.  HaHa!  Now the only question is on what day will Ian's company come home. 

Ian was telling me tonight about these two girls that him and his friend, Lawrence, have been trying to help out in Iraq.  Their names are Feyna and Baschwra, and are 15 and 17 years old.  They have five other siblings and their father is umemployed, all are homeless in the village that Ian patrols.  He has given them money to go to school and they just don't want to go.  He tried to help people out but they don't take the help offered.  These girls are pretty, as are all females from the middle east, and Ian just doesn't want another pretty girl to wind up in a bad situation like his cousin did.  When he was talking to his dad, Ian compared these two girls to his cousin.  I am so glad that he is helping them, but i hate to say it, its a lost cause.  If they do not want the help, just offer it to them and keep it on the table, but don't push the subject.  If they want it, they will take it, its as simple as that.  I just don't want him to get his hopes up for these girls' futures and then be sad to not see it happen if it ever does.  I mean he leaves VERY VERY soon.  But he has a good heart and I guess that's all that matters.  In a way, i find these girls funny because they have taken a "special liking" to Ian and Lawrence, even though they are just kids.  I think they just like American guys in general, i mean who wouldnt' but oh well.  I'm just glad that Ian tried and understands that there isn't anymore he can do for them.  I just told him to tell them that I was thinking about them.  That's all I can do.

I can't believe that Ian will be coming home so soon.  It hasn't felt like seven months and I still have so much crap to do before he comes home.  Looks like I'll be stressed out until I get on that plane, but what else is new. 

Things to do:  get ahead in all of my classes and let my professors know that I will be gone, Haircut, Dye hair light brown again, Tanning bed, Whiten teeth, Workout everyday, get down to 100 pounds (3 pounds), order motorcycle gear for me and Ian, deposit all money I have recieved from the university.  It doesn't seem like a lot but it is.

Why in the world would I make a post about someone on Xanga if I know they read my blog?  Am I stupid?  I think not.  If someone is able to read this and I need to vent about them, I keep it to myself and write it in private.  That is because I do not like drama, but some people apparently like to start crap and ruin my trust for them once again.  My heart is racing so fast right now because I am unbelievably PO'd at someone.  I don't like being mad at anyone, but if someone violates my trust, even just once, they are nothing in my mind.  Trust is something that I hold in high standards and once you break it you can't get it back. 

I need to talk to Ian, I am not quite sure about something he might agree to.  and if anyone who reads this thinks my last comment had anything to do with you, it doesn't so quit assuming that it does.   

Now I must catch up on homework and punch a few holes in some wood before Ian gets online and I discuss some things with him regarding this issue.  He should know what's been going on.

Well, Ian finally agreed to get married in the Spring of 2008.  He originally wanted to do it in the Fall of 2008 when he got out of the military in late 2007 or early 2008, and i refused to wait that long when I would be out of school anyway.  His dad wanted us to get married this coming fall (2006), but the more and more I thought about it, the more pointless it sounded.  The whole point in being married is to begin your lives together.  And since I would still be in school because of my scholarship in Kentucky and him in the Marines in California, we would not be able to physically live together and everything would be the same as it is now, as it is with us being engaged.  the only difference is that he would be getting more money and I would be on his health insurance instead of my dad's.  If a weddng took place this fall, Ian's best friends (nick and lawrence) would not be able to attend because there is no way that the military will let more than one, maybe two, people off for a weekend to fly across the country for a wedding.  And I would not want them to fly out of bounds because they could get in huge trouble for that.  If we would have decided to get married this fall, then we would miss each other even more than usual because we would think we had to be with each other since we would be married.  I'm fine with the whole distance thing, and so is he, but most of the engaged couples that I know (that are getting married soon) have a hard time with the distance issue.  All they talk about is how much they miss each other and I'm sure that they do, but focus on something else, don't think about it so much and don't talk about it so much.  After being apart for so long, you should be used to it by now. 

I hate it when people name other people in certain events without even telling them about it or ASKING them.  Especially when it includes traveling across the country for a couple of days (if that) when they most likely won't even be able to (or want to) get an out-of-bounds leave from the military.  I don't see it happening for numerous reasons and that's why it annoys me.  Any planning that involves more than one or two military personnel must be dealt with on leave time (alloted leave time that is) or on holidays.  That is something that I have learned and stick it when I'm planning things.  so other military mothers, fathers, and fiances should know that too.  I don't see what the big deal is with the whole "big wedding" is anyway.  Its one day, i mean I can understand the dress and rings, but everything else is just a waste of money.  Maybe its because I'm a country-girl and I don't like a lot of people sharing in my most intimate moments, i don't know.  All I know is that all i'm planning on is a church, a dress, rings, flowers, a cake, and a few witnesses and family.  Not big at all.  It will take 3 months tops to get it all together if that long at all.  Eloping is sounding good too, but our grandparents would kill us because both of us were the first born.

on a lighter note, I'm taking a very long vacation this summer and staying in California for 3 months.  Ian said that i needed a break so he basically told me that I was staying out there the ENTIRE summer.  He said that I couldn't work (which is fine with me) and that I couldn't take classes.  I fought him on the class part because I can take four online classes and get 12 credit hours for it.  Plus with him being gone during the day, it will give me something to do other than cleaning the apartment and doing laundary.  I am so excited.  I can't post what all we'll do and where we'll go (its a secret) but it will be a blast.

Anyways, I just had to get that anger about the whole "planning without asking" thing off of my chest.  It has been annoying me for almost a year, but its gotten super annoying in the past couple of weeks.

Finals are over, another 18 credit hour semester is over.  I have another one in about a month.  Joy.  hmm . . . What happens next semester?  well, on January 3rd, I start my externiship at a family practice in lexington.  that drive should be fun everyday.  I go to that every weekday until the 13th, then classes start on the 17th.  On Tuesdays, i have accounting at 9:30, then Biology at 11, and a Bio Lab at 12:20.  Monday and Wednesdays are externship days until March 6th.  I have a night class on Wednesday from 6-8:45.  Thursday I have accounting and biology (no lab, yay!).  Fridays and Saturdays I will probably work.  Sometime i need to find time to complete my KET correspondence course for History.  and sundays are my day of rest/day to spend time with Ian's family.  Then sometime around late march or april, Ian is supposed to come home, so things should be settled down by the time he comes home, which will be awesome!  It won't be too long until i get to see him walk across that bridge in Camp Pendleton.  Yay!

YAY!!!!  I got to talk to Ian today, twice.  I knew he was getting in today, but I didn't think he would actually get online in the middle of the night his time.  He told me about this girl named Kylie who thought he was single on myspace.  I just thought it was funny, I mean of course i think he's hot, but it freaks him out when other girls are interested in him.  He asked me to check out her profile and to me it seems like a scam.  I know that some people set up myspace accounts just to make contact with various people and get them to join other "adult" sites.  This is exactly what this girl's profile seems like, but oh well.  He told her that he was engaged and that if she just wanted someone to talk to then she could respond back, but she hasn't, so i guess she wanted more.  I think it was all so funny, i guess its because I am so relaxed about everything and I don't have any issues about that stuff anymore. 

I was hoping that Ian could give me some insight regarding what to get his father for christmas.  Now, i'm not saying that Ian's dad is boring, but he really doesn't have any hobbies other than work.  I know that he likes the outdoors, but he is just so picky about everything.  I have presents for everyone else on my list.  I sent Ian a big package of stuff plus the second season of scrubs.  He said that he had a list of movies that he wanted to see while he was in Iraq, but that his dad would have to take care of those.  I know exactly what he's talking about, so I will shut up about that.  If he wants anything else after he comes home, then i will get it for him, but he really can't use normal gifts in Iraq.  I don't know if he's getting me anything for christmas, but if he does it will be surprise.  He hasn't mentioned anything, but last year he did send me white roses (my favorite).  My engagement ring was a late christmas/b-day present (my b-day is christmas eve).  So i guess we'll see, but i'm not expecting anything. 

He told me to put a picture of myself up on myspace instead of both of us.  Granted it is MYspace, but I do like so show him off, so its staying up there until i find a good picture of myself or until he comes home.  He can just get over that. 

hmmm . . . things to do when he comes home from Iraq:  go backpacking, go hiking, race up a mountain, watch the sun rise where he proposed to me, go out of town for a couple of days, go to his grandparents house, go to my grandparents house, ect.  He asked me what I wanted to do while he was on post-deployment leave, so there are some things. 

I watched the president's speech on TV last night.  It can't even put my emotions into words right now and if i could, i would probably make most of the people who might read this mad, even though this is MY journal and I usually don't ask for people's opinion of it.  I am going to keep most of my comments on our moron president to myself, but i will say that hearing him try to make himself seem like a better president by trying to justify his mistakes was a complete waste of my time.  I am a republican, but I am also VERY liberal.  I am only a republican because of their moral/religious values rather than their political views.  Religion should come before government anyway.  Our country was built as "one nation under God" and I feel that we should respect that.  And as I sat in my 9th grade government class while the supreme court declared Bush the winner of the 2000 elections . . . I knew he was going to be just like his daddy and get us into another pointless war.  Except the first gulf war did have an understandable cause . . . this one didn't.  Yes, there was an evil dictator, but there is also an evil dictator in North Korea and you don't see us invading their country.  Iraq might have funded terrorism, but so do a lot of other countries.  And might I add that most of the terrorism money that was used in 9-11 was funded by none other than Saudi Arabia.  But of course bush won't invade them because our president likes oil and the Saudi's have a lot of it.  Democracy will never take a strong hold in that country.  It is a largly Muslim country (and no i'm not generalizing Muslims).  I have read the Koran and Democracy will not take hold in a Muslim country.  Especially in a country that has such a large internal instability as Iraq does.  The extreme Sunni's and Shite's have never gotten along and I doubt that they ever will.  A civil war will happen eventually.  How can an election be Democratic when ONE bus load of fake ballots coming from Iran were seized before the elections started?  I believe the driver when he said, "You caught me but you didn't catch the others."  Oh, yet another rigged election, sound like anything American's know about?  It sounds familiar to me.  Bush says he understands the loss of military lives and what military families go through . . . bull crap, he never served overseas, none of his immediate family members are in the armed forces, and i would LOVE to see one of his daughters serve a tour in Iraq.  That would just make my day.  He doesn't understand what it is like to miss someone and worry about them 24/7 and know that you can't just hop on Air Force One or some other airplane and see them whenever you want to.  Only the military and their families know about that kind of suffering.  Only the military families can know what it is like to get a phone call in the middle of the night or a knock on the door to find out that a loved one has perished and still not have full access to the events leading up to their death.  I fully support our military and I always have and always will.  They never asked for any of this.  They are simply doing the job that the President is to chicken to do himself.  Most want to defend their beloved country, but they should have to do it only if our country is in danger of being invaded, not just because their boss doesn't like another country's boss.  It is an honor to protect your country and I wish I had the desire to be in the armed forces, and yes, by the military being over there it does kind of make the United States a less likely target for a terrorist attack, but those same terroist attacks are targeting our military.  Maybe we should have gone into Iraq to simply remove an evil dictator, but in doing that, we have created more and bigger problems than there were before.  There is still intimidation in that country, but now its from terrorists instead of the country's leader.  There is still death in that country whether it is intentional or accidental.  But now we are forced to stay simply because we did destroy their country . . . they never asked for us to rid them of their dictator . . . but we did.  and in the process did a lot of damage that was probably necessary to find Saddam, but we are stuck there.  There will be no "winning the war on terrorism."  Terrorism has always been present in the world and will continue to be as long as there are people who don't like eachother.  It is as simple as that.  We will never win the war in Iraq.  That is a simple truth that people must face.  I have a cousin who works for the Department of Defense (I have clearance for a lot of information), and even he has told me that Bush has gotten us into a big mess that we can't get out of.  It is another Vietnam and we will pull out when a logical president is elected into office.  It may be 10 years down the road, but it will happen eventually.  You'd think the President would get a clue that people don't like his policies when his approval rating is 38%, yet he still wants to spy on his own citizens.  Shall we review our amendments?  I think the leader of the free world should know them already.  I should be able to say whatever I want about that idiot without being taken into custody and questioned for terrorism just because I think he's stupid.  My fiance, my great-uncle, great-grandfather, and many more in my family have fought for me to have that right.  I am not doing them any injustice by stating my emotions.  I have stated before, I fully support and respect the military and always will, but I do not support the war.  and Yes, that is possible to do.  I want the troops to get out ASAP before more lives have to be lost. 

Anyways, enough of my rambling, i've said way to much already and the only reason I am keeping this entry public is for people who actually are willing to listen to my reasoning.  Therefore, if anyone reads this and doesn't like what I have said, tough luck . . . don't read my journal.  It's as simple as that.  I don't comment on anyone's xanga accounts unless i know them, so unless you know me, don't comment on what I say if you don't have something good to say about it.  I have the right to say whatever I want thanks to my future husband and you all can have your opinions too, i don't really care.  However, this is MY journal, MY thoughts, so if you don't like them, don't read it.  (i just posted that so it can solve any issues i might have in the future regarding this site).